Hypocrisy at its finest...

     I have been very hesitant to get back on here, but I can't backtrack from where I began. It has been almost a month since I have visited my elders. Once a week or two passed by, I began to make excuses to with-hold going back. Unfortunately I was fighting a lost battle because it is part of my class to complete service hours. Today, I decided to go back and complete 3 more hours. I was greeted at the door by helping an EXTREMELY heavy woman wheel her back inside the building!(Instant karma?)

    Day 2
     
     As I was walking down the hallway to check in, I felt convicted. I also thought that since these ladies had only seen me one time before, there was absolutely no way that they would remember me! Wrong. I walked into the social room, and I heard from Miss L, "I've been wondering when you were gonna back and see us!". My heart sunk. She gave me a big hug and then took a seat next to her. Right after that, here came LS. She's spunky and can come off strong. "And where have you been?" she asked me. I have to be honest here, I did not have a concrete answer. All I could do was apologize, and assure them that I would be visiting more often.
   
     Today was music day, we had a special guest come and sing old country music. I enjoyed it for the most part, but then as I started getting sleepy, I looked around and saw others sleeping as well! He took small breaks between songs, and that is when each of us would chat (without getting in trouble LOL). Last night was the CMA award show. I love country music, and so does Miss L and LS. I overheard them talking about how outraged they were that Beyonce performed with the Dixie Chicks! Gotta love the generation gaps!

     The music time was over, and it was time for cards. I was looking forward to getting my redemption with UNO. I played with Miss L, LS, a woman I will refer to as J, and a man whom I will refer to as R. I am kicking some booty y'all! LS is getting mad because I am dropping draw 4 cards on her left and right, they're not the only ones with good memory! Mr J had never played before, so LS decided she was going to teach him to play. She continually controlled him on what to play next to where he got to the point, looked at us, and then began to laugh. It was contagious! No matter how young or old we are, I just watched first hand that women are ALWAYS going to try and be in control!

     While playing cards, my mind always begins to ponder. The first time I went in there, there was just old people. Now, I see my ladies that I am growing attached to. It made me feel awful knowing that Miss L was looking for me in all of these weeks. She and LS asked if I could bring my Hayden (my son) to visit as well. I thought going into this, that I was going to get to do my hours and never look back. Today, I felt like the word "hypocrite" was tattooed across my forehead. Now that I have faced what I was most fearful of, which was going back to volunteer, I can now grow from here.